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4 hours on a flight is a long time. It is long enuff to think about things, about my life, experience, life before, life ahead, my dreams and aspirations. The last 4 days, I had been a mad man on the loose. It capped off with a 15 hours sleeps as I slumbered in exhaustion on Monday. I was a man on a mission. I did not know what my mission were but I needed to live my life like it were the last day on earth. I was searching for an answer. I was looking for a path in my life.

I spent a lot of time on Wakeboarding, Golfing, and Clubbing. I had quality time with friends and family. I even went for a run on a route which I have been running since I was 15yrs old. I have changed, the route didn’t. I was searching for something to give my life a reason to push forward. I have had a rough year in terms of career, relationships, and personal confusion. I seek for answers but I had no solutions. I didn’t understand a lot of my experiences. I realized now that I don’t need to understand them anymore. My brother defined me as someone who has ran into a wall and I am slowly picking myself up. I do not disagree with him. I ran into a wall.

It is not easy to admit that my life ran astray. Think many people do that but few would admit. Well, I am 33 going 34. In reality, I do have about 15yrs before my body force me admit that I am done with my carpe diem attitude. Given the amount of radiation we are exposed to, hell, I dun even know if I have 15 yrs. What I do with the remaining time is important to me. I am a mathematician as my degree has described me. I don’t believe in fate .I believe that everything is a chance and everything is randomly selected. Our path in life is not pre-destined. We can easily be a super star one day and a fuck up the next. So, it is up to the individual to make the best use of his or her life. I wished I were a lucky ass where everything good falls before me. Well, too bad. Suck it up and move on.

I woke up from my 15hours sleep refreshed. For once, I didn’t think about the one person who has made my life a personal roller coaster in the last 8mths. I woke up refreshed and ready to challenge the world. I had breakfast with a close friend, someone who has been dear to me for a long time. Well, I keep all my friends very close; Bohe, Chris, Serena, Marc, Paul, 10, Ai Lay and Johnny (Moo, you weren’t around but I remembered your words and advice)….  You have made my weekend something really cool. You all reminded me what’s important. Sometimes what we fight for in life is only worthy if we can share it with our love ones, close ones.

A birdie is no big deal, if I couldn’t share with my close pals. Hell, I got my brother excited enough. I was out with my buddy and saw him happy in the arms of someone he cannot love but what the hell… at that moment, he was dancing the night away with her. He wore a smile on his face which I have never seen before. Well, I have never seen him grooving to house music too. My nephew secretly conspired with me to splashed water on his daddy’s face by the poolside. The friendship with a 3 years old is as pure as it can get, I am his Uncle John. Golfing with Bohe is always a fun day. He slaughtered me on the fairway with his kick ass swing but he still gave me 0,2,2. Only close friends gets 0,2,2. Well, I still lost but I took it all back on the mahjoy and poker table. He was withering in exhaustion and  was leaning on brotherhood juice to stay awake just to keep me company. Chris came and became his tag team partner in the HANG OUT WITH JP WEEKEND.

Marc, you don’t get drunk anymore after all that Hangzhou training, good seeing my buddy steaming ahead in life. Ai Lay, I met you because of a pair of Oakleys, 5 yrs and many pairs of Oakley’s later. I still enjoyed your company even though, we don’t hang out as much as I would have preferred. . Serena… you and I trade more complains than aunt aggie columns. Thanks for listening.

Thanks Friends. This is why life is still beautiful. 

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